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Worship is a beautiful, sweet experience — laying everything down at the feet of the Lord and desiring only Him in return. It is a place where we practice abiding in the Lord, becoming sensitive to His direction.

Today, we’re talking about song worship — singing praises to the King of all Kings.
At times, I struggle here. I try hard to press into His presence — to let go of anxiety and states of depression, to lay down my pride, to fight the lustful thoughts that sometimes permeate my mind.

But the problem is: I try.

(Galatians 3:3–5)
“Are you so foolish? After beginning by means of the Spirit, are you now trying to finish by means of the flesh? Have you experienced so much in vain — if it really was in vain? So again I ask: does God give you His Spirit and work miracles among you by the works of the law, or by your believing what you heard?”

Yes, I am foolish. Very.
The Lord is showing me to be still in His presence and wait for Him to act (Psalm 37:7). In Him, I have everything I need. I know that in Jesus, I am free.

The enemy wants me to walk back into an empty jail cell — with the door wide open.
Eternally free, we can now only choose jail.
We aren’t subject to stay there.

I’m realizing now that anger, lust, pride, worry — all the things I’m tempted by — lead to chains, no matter how small they may seem. Sometimes they feel justifiable, even like the “right” thing to do. They feel good. They offer momentary relief.
But it’s only numbing the pain — without realizing you’re still in that cell, choosing death and separation from the Lord.

We have to remain free.
That’s only through saying yes to Christ Jesus!

So in these vulnerable times when I feel the Lord is near — I write.
When I feel distant — I write.
And in all the times in between — I write.

I communicate with the Lord this way, and I pray that through this writing, He uses me to save souls.

I love the Lord, and I pray that you will love Him too — to understand His love for you, and to make it personal to your heart.

Poetry

To know You, Jesus
To be in relationship with the God of the universe
To be used for Your glory
To be made a son
A living sacrifice for Your honor

To abide in Your love
To be content in You
Wanting only You, Lord
Chasing only You, ending life at Your feet
To put down every idol
Every lustful craving
Every relationship that doesn’t reflect Your love
To die — to live

Set Your church on fire
Only You can ignite the hearts of believers
Only You can burn in us
BURN, JESUS, BURN
To know You, Jesus

To live a life where I say no to Your nature
Continually failing expectations
To then be brought out of eternal separation
Lifted and honored by Your death

Even a glimpse of Your love is overwhelming
Peace that surpasses understanding
To know protection is in Your love
Comfort, freedom, rest — eternal peace
To know You will never leave nor forsake me

To know You have been after my heart
You’re still after my heart
To know You are my Father and Friend
To know You, Jesus

To have life figured out in Your love
Putting down the idols of Your blessings
And the benefits I have in You
To not use You as a means of success
To not look to You as prosperity
But to just love and want You

To have a humble heart so You can live through me
The sweet presence of Jesus Christ
Emmanuel — you will never fail
You are success
You are kindness
You are boldness
You are self-control

You are the husband
You are the quiet spirit of a wife
You are the sweet child who obeys
You are I AM
The God of all gods
King of all kings

To say life is figured out
Thank You, Jesus
Thank You for life
It is finished
I have You — I have all I need

I dwell in Your sweet presence
Praising You for making me Yours
The one You adore
The one for whom You store treasure in heavenly places
Keep me here — hold me tight — never let me leave
Protect me, please

As I cry out on my knees — fill my hope
Fill my cup
Fill me with love
Make me hate anything that wants to take me away from this
Take me away from You
The Holy Place
To die — to live

To give up all of me to accept all of You
To give me a holy heart
To bless me with a holy mom
A holy wife

A holy and amazing brother
Thank You for my brother
I love my brother, Jesus
Show my brother Your face, Jesus
Take the place of all his mistakes
Make Your love plain
Give him life today
To die — to gain

Hearts longing for truth
All this corrupt teaching
People don’t know Your heart
They don’t know You
Help them know You

Fill me with holy fire for souls
Fill me with Your love
Take all pride
Live through me
Save souls

To know You, Jesus